I made the conscious decision when we moved to Texas to that I was going to be authentic as a person. Wouldn’t hold back who I was or mask it. I want to be who I am take it or leave it…this is me. I try to be transparent and honest with people because I truly believe that is how we all grow. We learn from others and by being honest about our issues we give people permission to see and admit it in their lives. This next twelve weeks I am going to be very transparent with you all. I actually have to report my progress with this 12 week challenge that I am on so you will be getting updates here hopefully every week.
Since I got married I have struggle with my weight. Every year after we were married I went up a jean size. It is sad when you consider pregnancy a weight loss plan. For me every time I got pregnant I would eat right and gained just the right amount and would walk out of the hospital a size smaller. But it would slowly creep back. So three kids later and knowing we were done I decided to fight to get my body back. I tried counting calories, weight watchers and even trained and completed a half marathon. Nothing helped. I saw a Dr and a Nutritionist…nothing seemed to be apparently wrong but I still struggled.
Remember when I said I was going to be transparent….here it is. January 2010 I weighed in at 191. I cried. Hard. I had never been that heavy before…not even pregnant. I wasn’t happy. I didn’t feel healthy. I read something on Pinterest and it said if I had to run for my life I would die…that is how I felt. I wanted it badly but seemed to lack the motivation to do it.
I got on some herbal supplements and lost 20ish lbs (give or take depending on the day) but now my scale just hovers between 169 and 173. I saw 165 one time and was beyond excited. I realized I needed to figure out what was making it not work for me and had been praying about it when I saw a post on FB by my friend Millicent. She had lost a lot of weight and looked amazing. We chatted a bit and then I looked at the website and after reading it I had pinpointed for me where my failing was.
The Bible says in Zechariah 4:6 “…’Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the LORD Almighty.” I wanted to get better…but I had been relying on my power (which is pathetic, especially at night when the munchies hit and we have a convenience store like 2 minutes away) I submitted my info in the contact me area of Cyndi Benson Ministries site. She is the founder of the Grace and Strength Lifestyle. I was happy to receive a call from Cyndi herself shortly thereafter and I found a sister in Christ right away. I truly believe God led me to her. I am blessed to have her personally coaching me through this journey to change my life. Not just physical change but spiritual.
11 other people are joining me on this specific life changing challenge and I can’t wait to meet them. I am going to be posting a before picture on here sometime soon (eeks). As hard as it is to be vulnerable and honest sometimes about stuff like this…I am inviting you to join me on my journey. Lets take it together…come cheer me on, cry with me (I will cry…I just know it) and encourage me. If you are on a journey yourself of weight loss or whatever leave a comment for me. One of the things I am challenged to do is spend time in the Word and I have a journal ready and I am committing to pray for anyone who needs it.
So are you ready…it starts in a week. But I am starting preparing my mind for this journey this week. Mental preparation is as important as anything. So come join me…lets start our walk together.